why i hate staying at pgp

… INSECTS BUGS AND INSECTS EVERYFUCKINGWHERE.

Seriously! Fucking! Disgusting! I’m about to go to bed when I see this tiny winged insect at the foot of my bed. I swat it away. Then as I’m about to lie on my bed and sleep I see this fucking spider right beside my pillow. And obviously since I have this intense fear of all bugs and insects, I’m afraid to catch it and I can’t kill it because the only way I dare to do it is to squash it on my bed using some heavyweight. And obviously I don’t want to sleep beside a squashed flattened spider.

REALLY now is it so much to ask for – ONE peaceful night sleep without seeing a fucking bug or insect? Just last week I saw this weird greenish bug that had this long elongated shell and invisible legs on my bed.

It’s disgusting. And gross. And hence why I can’t wait to go home after my final paper this Friday. GOODBYE to this fucking disgusting dump of a room. It’s not like I don’t keep my room clean. So why the hell are there always so many goddamned bugs. Plus I live on the 6th floor – I can’t imagine how much worse it must be for people living on the lower level floors.

end in sight

Two days, three papers down and over with. YAYYYY. I’m left with two other papers, gek1505 tomorrow and el1101e on Friday. Obviously I don’t give a shit about gek1505, I don’t care what grade I get as long as I pass. Anyway, the worst of it all is over. El1101e is the easiest mod I have out of the 5, so I’m not really too stressed over that. Monday and Tuesday, i.e. today, were the most intense, and IT’S OVER!!! 🙂

I think I messed up some for ec1101e on Monday.. eh, I left about a total of 10 marks of questions blank because I didn’t have enough time to finish the paper >.> Ohwell. Just glad to get it over and done with. WHEEEE. Kinda already in a celebratory mood even though finals aren’t really over yet.

The worst is over and now the end is soooo close 🙂  Can’t wait for the holidays.

50 shades of grey

Never really understood the hype around this book. It’s basically poorly-written smut without plot. There are way better BDSM novels out there. Hell, I’ve read way better free BDSM / D/S fics out there. I could easily recommend the top few that I’ve read, but really, you don’t even have to try hard because it’s near impossible to find as poorly-written a book as this. The funny thing is that I’ve read both paid and free BDSM and D/S fiction, but somehow it’s always the free fiction that is way, way, WAY better. I’m not even kidding. The best ones I can remember at the top of my head are free anyway.

So I’m watching this Youtube video with Youtubers reading out lines from the book and I’m literally laughing my ass off.

“I want you, and the thought of anyone else having you is like a knife twisting into my dark soul”

“(regarding his dick)I want you to become well-acquainted on first-name terms, if you will, with my favourite and most cherished part of my body”

“I don’t make love. I fuck. Hard.”

“Pulling off his boxers, his erection springs free. Holy cow!”

HAHAHA omg. Lol. The way those Youtubers read those comments were freaking hilarious.

But on a serious note, let me quote someone else on this book because she put it across so nicely:

He exploits her, stalks her and abuses her! She cries after sex. She is afraid of him being angry! Even when he is angry at something else, she thinks it’s her. Her reasoning for allowing him to hit her as his therapy is because she’s afraid to lose him. That is not a reason for agreeing to a BDSM lifestyle! In fact, that’s not even really “consent!

Ana constantly tells him how uncomfortable and afraid she is with what he wants and all he can say is ‘That’s a Dom/sub thing. You’ll get used to it’. Hell NO! That’s not BDSM. 

50 Shades of Grey Nonsense isn’t about BDSM, it’s just about abuse, a power-hungry man, and a child stuck in a woman’s body.

sc1101e

I really hate this mod. Words can’t even describe how tedious and dull and torturous it is. I stopped doing the readings in Week 5 cause they were just too damn friggin’ boring and difficult to understand. Contrast this with SE1101e where I always did the readings ahead of time because they were interesting and fun, in a way.

The topics seemed really interesting, in the beginning. Gender and sexuality, power, culture, family, class stratification, crime and deviance… but I hate how we have to remember who said what. Weber, Marx, Foccault, Durkheim, Goldthorpe, Wright, etc etc… who has a functionalist perspective and what did they argue for, who has a conflict theorist perspective and what did they argue for, blah blah blah. Like I don’t even give a fuck about these dudes. What the hell is the point of remembering who is who and who said what. Let ME write the freaking essay and MY freaking thoughts, not someone else’s crap.

Can’t wait to get this crappy mod over and done with.

guilty until proven innocent

Woman accuses man of rape.

Too many inconsistencies in the evidence, case against the man dropped.

Man now spends over $200,000 to persecute the woman for perverting the course of justice by making false rape allegations.

Woman kills herself.

And reading the comments on the article, most people have sympathy only for the woman. Poor woman, HOW DARE the man try to clear his name! Name him and shame him!

Um hello? Are people stupid or fucking stupid? No one knows for sure what exactly happened here and who the real victim was, but obviously most are quick to jump on the ‘he’s a man so he must have done it, she’s a woman so she MUST be the victim’ bandwagon.

So if someone falsely accused you of rape, you’re just supposed to stand there and take it and not try to defend yourself or clear your name? Wow. People are ridiculous. Rape ruins life. False rape claims ruin life. And I find it amazing how women who are found to have made false rape claims are jailed for at most a year, while men who are falsely accused of rape and incorrectly found guilty spend years and years of their life in prison. Anyone who falsely accuses someone else of rape should be jailed for the same duration that her/his victim would have been jailed for.

Beyond that, the treatment of female sex predators and male sex predators are so different it’s almost laughable.

Adult female caught having sex with underaged youth = jailed for 6 months with probation. And you read comments from the public like “Wow, lucky kid! Wish I had a teacher like that when I was his age” or “She did nothing wrong, that kid was in heaven!”

Adult male caught having sex with underaged youth = jailed for 6 years, most likely more. And comments from the public like, “What a MONSTER this man is! Jail him for life and throw the key away!” “Poor kid, she’s gonna be traumatised for the rest of her life!”

Because yeah, all boys are horny sex-starved creatures whose aim in life is to bang their hot English teacher. And all girls are innocent, chaste, pure victims who would never willingly throw themselves onto their teacher. Sluts? Of course not. Always the victim.

In other cases,

Jilted man bites girlfriend’s lip in a fit of rage = 8 years in prison

Yasmin Thomas, a woman obviously, glassed man in the face in an unprovoked attack = given a suspended sentence and walks free.

I wonder what a female must do to even be convicted of a crime and sent to prison? It’s amazing that there are even such a thing as female-only prisons when in most cases women just walk free with a slap on the wrist.

The double standards in society never cease to amaze me. There’s one law for women (like feel free to attack anyone you see on the streets, women, but make sure it’s a man you’re attacking and not a woman because then there’s a much higher chance you’ll get away scot-free) and one law for men (never cross a woman because she can accuse you of rape or whatnot anytime she feels like it and then you’re guilty until proven innocent, and chances are you’ll go to jail even if you never did the crime because hey, you’re a man so you can never be the victim).

On another note, I would like to see those feminazis out there yelling for equal treatment for male and female sex offenders. But you won’t ever see that will you?

shot in the dark

and i’m wondering why i still fight in this life

cause i’ve lost all my faith in this damn bitter strife

and it’s sad, it’s so damn sad

I don’t know what triggered it, but all of a sudden this old, ancient (well not really ancient) song keeps replaying over and over in my mind. Can’t get it out of my head :/

Random but, I kind of miss N. And what we used to be.

._.

yahoo and their security questions… >_> Seriously. How the heck am I supposed to remember my answer to the security question which was set YEARS and years and years ago. Got the password right but they still want me to key in the answer to the dumb question just because I haven’t logged into those particular email accounts in over a year. -.-